a rebel in the F.D.G

to draw the dividing line
between the self and the tide

the general facade:
the slaughter of the soul
the massacre
and the spiritual void
the annihilation of the self,
emotional hunger!

the emptiness from which i fled
the emptiness from which i fed!

i sleep almost every night and many times i wish i didn't have to
i eat everyday, and most days i wish i don't have to
I answer nature's call everyday and everyday i wish i don't have to
i don't even wonna be human!

Human: An organism capable of understanding that he is split in half. He is never whole.

A cat is focused on being a cat at all times. No distractions.

What about us humans?

Dont u sleep ?
i sleep almost every night, and many times i wish i didn't have to,
i eat everyday, and most days i wish i don't have to, I answer nature's call everyday and everyday i wish i don't have to...
i don't even wonna be human!

You dont have to, you know !
how?

you're not obliged!
you're eating not becoz you have to, but becoz ur hungry !
you wake up , coz you have enough of sleep !
and you sleep coz you'd be too tired!
you're not obliged to do any of those! its a matter of choice!

really?
how can i choose not to sleep, when sleeps overcomes me,
when sleep is stronger than me, stronger than my will!


so you are saying u r controlled...?

i am restricted, not totally free
man can never be god when the quality of his essence is restricted!
the equation changes!
we can never be divine, yet we yearn for it sooo much!

i see how u think !

it's the dividing line that splits us in two

A cat is focused on being a cat at all times. No distractions.
and us! we live in denial,
denying the fact that we are stinking farting shitting vomitting pissing creatures!

the cat does all that too !


yes it does that all the time, it does nothing but that

and we do the same
and we deny it in ourselves to ourselves
we hide our toilets
we never let ourselves be seen shitting
we hide from it
we are hypocrites
pretending divinity and wiping our execretions with the other hand
we get tattooed to defy our mortal changing physical and emotional identity


It is an effort trying to prove to ourselves that we are party in control of our aching dying mortal animal bodies...